Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Word Count Wednesday - 19 July 2017

Things that I worked on last week:
  • Chapter 13: 3156 words (finished at 4150 words)
  • Chapter 14: 1005 words
  • Scene practice: 1480 words

Total for the week: 5641 words

What am I working on?

The usual.

How do I feel about the process?

I have the feeling that the amount of meh I give about everything is proportional to how many words I'll manage to write in a week. While that is a bit worrying, I will admit that whenever I manage to finish a small goal (such as finishing a chapter), it fills me with enough euphoria to continue writing. I guess that, even when I'm at my lowest, I still manage to find a way to write; whether it is just as a personal journal entry or something I intend to publish anonymously to the public, it all means the same to me in the end.

It's come to a point that, while family might not support the idea of being an author, writing itself is a form of therapy that they won't dissuade me from doing. One day, I might show them differently with the former. The latter, however, is pretty much one of the constants that I've had in life. I don't know, writing is just something I've always done.

What am I reading?

Same list as last week. I really hope that it doesn't expand any time soon because I'm so behind.

What else am I doing?

So there was that coloring and coffee thing (minus the coffee for me since caffeine can kill me) which went down a turn that I recounted in a post earlier this week. Now, I pride myself on having a pretty vivid imagination. However, said imagination does not guarantee anything creative nor creativity itself, as portrayed in that picture.

Still job hunting as well.

Monday, July 17, 2017

"Color Her in a Different Style"

...that's what Sarah and Shaundee told me to do while coloring last Friday.

Shaundee, being the one with more artistic training, colored Mary Shelley in a more straight-forward style. Sarah, on the other hand, inadvertently emphasized the "shell" in SHELLey by transforming the writer of Frankenstein (or The Modern Prometheus) into a mermaid.

And then there was me.

To be honest, I had no idea what I was doing, so when I commented that her hair looked like doughnuts instead of the intended "modern ombre blonde" I was going for, I just rolled with it and it all went downhill from there.

(Sarah, Shaundee, it's your guys' turn. Put them on the blogs. GO!)

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Word Count Wednesday - 12 July 2017

Things I worked on last week:
  • Chapter 12: 2418 words (finished at 4226 words)
  • Short scene thing for fun: 1194 words
  • Chapter 13: 994 words
Total for last week: 4606 words

What am I working on?

I guess I'm working on a lot of things. Those scene things are coming up more often lately, though I'm trying not to let it detract from my main project right now. Not included in the above word count is a lot of the planning of my next main project.

How do I feel about the process?

Still feeling meh from last week, but as it shows, my ability to write out words hasn't been affected, so that's a plus. I also posted a bit of The Blighted Earth on a different website, just for fun and to see if people might be interested. So far, nothing, but that's fine by me. Not really much extra work on my part. I think that posting it under a completely different anonymous identity that doesn't have the audience my other one has might have a part in it, but who knows. It's like starting new, but without being too secretive about it this time. Oh gosh, the terrible writing associated with my first anonymous "writing persona." None shall ever know it's me. Never.

Or maybe people will find out. People are good detectives on the internet if they want to be, after all. (If that happens: I swear! All of it was because I was an angsty teenager! I'm not like that now, I promise!)

What am I reading?

Still the same books as last week.

What else am I doing?

Trying to find a part-time job that fits into my upcoming school schedule. I'm not hopeful about that, to be honest.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

Word Count Wednesday - 5 July 2017

Things I worked on last week:
  • Chapter 11: 1948 words (finished at 2523 words)
  • Chapter 12: 1808 words
  • Jade poem: 139 words
Word count for this week: 3895 words

What am I working on?

Going to continue with that writing-a-novel-for-fun thing. So far, I'm at the point where I'm pretty sure what the end's going to be and how many more chapters it will last. I'm thinking at around chapter 20 or 21 is going to be the ending, then I can work on the last in the trilogy. After that, I'm freeeeeeee. At least until I decide to punish myself with my next epic-length story that will take me a few years to complete. Gosh, why do I do this to myself?

(Because it's fun, Jodee. You know this.)

While I'm not working on that, I'm planning out some of the scenes and details of said epic-length-novel-because-I-hate-myself plot, but I'm going to be a bit more serious about it. While the one I'm working on now isn't complete garbage, it's still fitting of being tossed into a landfill. It's Deus ex machina galore, questionable character motivations, and fever-dream inspired subplots. At this point, I'm having fun with it, but the next project I'm actually going to try this time. It's largely in the planning stages right now, and I'm trying to get a feel for whether to write it in third- or first-person. I'm leaning towards third-person.

That project should keep me relatively preoccupied for the next three years. Or less, depending on how well I do the planning beforehand.

I'm also taking part of Camp NaNoWriMo this July, joining in on a cabin with Sarah Covault like last time. Just saying if anyone's reading this and wants to join in, there's still spots available!

My project is pretty much the combined word count of all the other things I'm working on this month. Since my attention is spread pretty thinly between projects, I thought it would be prudent to not have a dedicated NaNoWriMo project this month.

In regards to the poem I wrote a bit earlier in the week, well... I just remember taking a shower and then a few of the lines came to me. And because of how my brain works, they kept repeating themselves and in order for me to be free of them was to write it down.

Also, my depression decided to kick me around really hard since last week. (Being sick and bedridden didn't help matters.) I just felt in the mood for darker poetry for once.

How do I feel about the process?

Meh. Though that's pretty much how I feel about everything lately.

Wake up? Meh. Eat? Meh. Shower? Meh. Take medicine so my sickness would go away faster? Meh. Go outside? Meh. Lay down on a comfortable mattress? Meh. (Seriously, I had a weird moment where I just went into my dark closet and curled into a ball on the hardwood floor. I wasn't sad or anything, I just felt like it was the thing to do, for some reason.)

Write? Meh.

Thankfully, the meh-ness didn't get me really bad, since I was able to type out a few things before it got worse and started thinking, "Please, someone just kill me right now, I swear."

Though I think a bit of that sentiment kinda leaked into my "Jade" poem. Whoops.

What am I reading?

Still have a lot of reading to do, but haven't made any progress in any of them because reading just got frustrating to me. And so, same list as last week, though my group finished reading The Magician's Nephew and started reading The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.

What else am I doing?

I edited another thing just for my group's enjoyment (since they think I'm really good at playing and that I can never die. Hahaha, joke's on them.) Still really rusty from my high-school video-production days, and I'm seriously missing using Final Cut Pro, but iMovie at least had some ability to cut things together.

I'm also going to be meeting Sarah, Shaundee, and Taunya to do some coloring and coffee (or tea/ice-drink thing in my case) on Friday as well as have a get-together potluck with my friends from high school now that they've all graduated from universities.

...and I myself haven't done so yet. What am I doing with my life?

Monday, July 3, 2017


The monster's name was Jade,
after the green-hued eyes she possessed.
She spoke like thunder of a summer storm
or like a costal breeze as a sweet caress.
She accepted my blood as payment
to ensure my rage has died.
Accepted, I thought she'd help me–
instead she killed me inside.

I broke free from Jade's steel-cold chains
that bound my feet and hands.
They left marks and scars from where they touched,
and yet I failed to understand
I'd never free myself from her for as long as I live,
for her call is much too great.
When I hurt I crave that pain,
that payment I used to hate.

I now fear of leaving her,
the way she hid my hopeless rage.
Help me, my green-eyed monster.
Kill me, my Jade, my blade.

(Oh wow, a poem. How'd that happen?)

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Word Count Wednesday - 28 June 2017

Things I worked on last week:
  • Chapter 11: 575 words
  • A screenplay (to help me with writing a novel): 452 words
Total for this week: 1027 words

What am I working on?

As you can see, I didn't get to write 3k words in chapter 11. I had to delete most of it because it didn't flow well in the story. The word count if I had kept it would have been around 2.5k more, but I knew that 2.5k would have caused problems for me later on in the plot since it was self-contained and didn't move anything along or added any new kind of discovery for the characters. So I ended up nixing all of those troublesome scenes and started anew. Thank goodness for that Scrivener software, because I have multiple subplots that are going on and two of the subplots were fine. The others... not so much. All it needed was to choose the scenes that involved the development of this one character (that I was having issues with) and deleted only those ones. So yeah, I'm going to continue writing chapter 11.

Last night, however, without any real planning on my part, I ended up writing the screenplay of a novel idea I've been having. I tried writing it as a novel, but the action between dialogue was eluding me, so I decided to write it out as a screenplay for now. I'll fill in the novelizing bits and reformat it as normal prose later.

How do I feel about the process?

It hurt a lot to delete all those things I wrote for chapter 11. I'm generally okay to "kill my darlings" in my writing if someone or myself feels that something better could fit, but a whole 2.5k worth in a single chapter? Gah, so much writing is now never to be seen. But I've come to the acceptance that, while I like the ideas for how the scenes would play out... they were terrible ideas. I could practically feel the formation of plot holes as I was writing and I was struggling to envision the chapters that would come afterward. I thought it was writer's block. Nope, the idea was just not meant to be. I decided to go with what I feel to be a more fitting and interesting sequence of events, but still reaching the same goal I wanted for the characters.

What am I reading?

Still the same list as last week, but I've barely made any ground in any of them. I've been writing more than I've been reading (even though I've had to delete most of what I've wrote).

What else am I doing?

I've now been assigned to be the unofficial "videographer" for my online group for the team fights we've been having for this video game. (And here is where I let it all out and reveal just how much of a nerd I am, and exactly where I nerd out.) I've spend a few minutes editing simple videos for the group, and I'm finding that I enjoy it. Here's a sample of one of the fights we've done (this is also the same game I mentioned a few weeks ago where I "sniped" one of the enemy game streamers. I'm playing a different role this time):

Thankfully, the group doesn't care too much about editing anything fancy. Just put in the interesting bits. Sadly for this one video, I've had to put everything on its lowest settings because the computer was complaining (which also means no game audio).

And yes, I play Guild Wars 2. I'm a nerd. I'm pretty embarrassed about it, but hey, this is my blog. I get to share things I like and hope others do too. At some point I'm just going to have to be honest with myself and stop pretending I'm Miss Super Professional all the time because I'm absolutely not. I think this is a decent first step.

(Now... to tell my parents that they raised a nerdy girl, hahaha.)

Friday, June 23, 2017

Highlight of my day...

...told through a series of pictures. (Possible spoiler warning?)

Was writing, couldn't decide on a title for my document. Then this happened.

Coming up with good titles is one of the greatest weaknesses I have in writing. Thankfully, my friend was eager to help.

(And yes, I did fork over about $40+ for the Scrivener writing software. #noregrets)